Musings by OZ

Welcome to my BLOG!

I originally wrote and published this blog while my wife and I were living in Warsaw Poland. We have since returned to Los Angeles CA where we are currently self quarantining. Since I am now un-employed and hiding from the Covid-19 Virus I find I have a bit of extra time on my hands. I have decided to revisit each blog, fix a few mistakes hear and their, ok I didnt catch all of the mistakes, and re-post them.

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Oz

I am not quite sure how to start a Blog , honestly I don’t even know what a “blog” is, having said that I just looked it up and I now know what BLOG means, I assumed it was an acronym but I was wrong, it simply means web log, lose the we and throw the B next to the log and you get a Blog! Well now that I have sorted that out off I go with my web log!

I intend for this blog to be a vehicle of sorts that I will use to transport my thoughts from point A to point B, point A being the deep dark recesses of my brain and point B being the  more tangible location of the world wide web, or is it less tangible, it doesn’t matter as long as I have somewhere to leave my thoughts after they have been gathered from the nether regions of my lobes so I don’t end up tripping over them as I attempt to navigate my way through life.

I will use this blog as a way to organize my thoughts, this is not always easily accomplished,  as well as share my journey with friends and family or anyone that may be so inclined to join me as I attempt to put pen to paper or finger to keyboard in the hope of being able to share some of my life experiences which may or may not be interesting to anyone but myself.

Some of the struggles that I have been through in the last few years have affected my memory, I have some periods that I only have vague recollections of my experiences however I have been keeping a very loose journal of some of the shit I have been through so I will use this as a template to help prompt my memories in hopes that I am able to fill in the blanks and compose a complete entry.

In this new fancy web log of mine I intend on sharing my thoughts, struggles, challenges and successes. The past few years have been fairly interesting, filled with dramatic highs and life changing lows my life has been a rollercoaster ride with so many ups and downs that I am still trying to grasp what any of it means,  perhaps writing it down and sharing it will help me get some clarification.

My posts may not be in the correct chronological order, in fact they may not be in any order, they are indeed just random musings, hence the title.

I may post regularly or infrequently, I have very few expectations from this blog and I expect the same lack of commitment from my readers assuming I do indeed have readers. All I know is that I enjoy taking time out of my day to sit, consider and reflect.

Cancer has been a big part of my life for the last few years so I will be writing about this journey, this is not going to be the only topic but it will certainly be in the forefront.  I have shared many of my Cancer stories on Face Book and received such a huge amount of support from so many people that it truly helped with my recovery.  Although I will be touching on some of the same experiences I do intend on sharing a bit more deeply than I did on FB, I didn’t want to be Debby downer every time I made a post so I  somewhat shortened my posts to make them more Face Book appropriate.

I believe that it helps me heal by sharing my story,  Cancer itself and the treatments that are required to beat it really do take a lot out of you both physically and mentally and can take years to recover from, from what I understand some do not ever fully recover.  Although these days I am feeling pretty damn good I still have to deal with the lingering effects of my battle with cancer.

CLL, Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia, the type of cancer that I have, is not curable, I am in remission currently but I will be looking over my shoulder for many years to come, my next Blog entry will follow some of my latest struggles and the whole looking over the shoulder thing.